not really.
today was my first official day of work. everyone got access to work e-mail addresses. my friend found some old e-mails in which someone was shit-talking me. said i was bad for the work environment. it made me sad. i asked the person who showed me if it was legitimate, and she said if it was i wouldn't still be here. it didn't make me feel any better. i don't understand why this hen just didn't address the issue with me. she was my boss and never said anything except behind my back. she also shit-talked me to the big boss, who upon hearing i was chosen for my position said something sarcastially like "all right, i guess she's a good choice, if you can work with her." i barely even know this guy. so i guess i have a reputation, and whether deserved, i have to disprove it. i found all of this out in the middle of my work day, and i let myself get sad for a few minutes. but that was all. and then i told myself to get back to work and look forward. and i did.
what's worse is i used to be friends with this hen. it's really hard for me to let go of a friendship, but i don't want to be the person who i was when i was friends with her anymore. if i am to be honest, our friendship was based on somewhat malicious gossip and drinking. so i guess i had this coming.
to break old habits.
there is never a better time than now.
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