When someone is having a bad day, they go home and deal with it in their way then wake up and start a new day, usually a better day. Even when the bad day carries over, eventually the string of bad days end because a person’s mood will change. People become happy again and they forget about improving their lives. They won’t make major changes unless the bad days keep stringing together and making their life miserable.
I’ve heard countless people complain about their jobs, but they never do anything about it because the pain isn’t strong enough. They don’t want to work at changing their habits because all they see is more pain. They see a pile of lifelong behavior patterns that aren’t worth changing. They are used to the emotions that they’ve dealt with for 10, 30, or 50 years. They don’t want to dive into their emotional mess and probably come out disappointed in themselves.
i don't want to be a person who doesn't learn from her mistakes. sometimes, i think i confuse trying to change with actually changing. but at times, change feels like it is never happening or that it is constantly happening but not to my desired outcome. when my own faults keep coming up and obstructing the life i want to live no matter how often i try to approach them (and from different angles) i feel like i'm in a bad made-for-tv version of groundhog's day. maybe it's on lifetime or ABC family and i play bill murray's daughter who is an asshole, albeit unknowingly, and can't seem to keep anyone close for too long without being disappointed or being a disappointment. it will be called groundhog's day 2: this time the train sequence is for real.
also, i'd like to say the double-standard most people have about forgiving women versus forgiving men is seriously bogus.
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